Hey everyone! As promised from my last blog entry, I wanted to explain in detail about a few things. There are some changes that I am going to do, mainly pertaining to my personal life. Some changes are for me to start dating more.... which I have not done in a long time. I think I need some advice too because I have kind of guarded myself from a lot of great potential guys because of my confidence.
Last November, I celebrated my 30th birthday (WOOHOO! Dirty Thirty!). Now to be quite honest, I was nervous about turning thirty because the main thing is I am getting older, it's starting a new decade for me, and I am just nervous of the unexpected. I wanted to do something fun so I asked a group of people, whom I am close with, to come with me to Austin for a weekend. I was even nervous of going because this would be the second time out of thirty years that I have gone somewhere for my birthday. I had a great time too! We went to Rainey Street on Friday night, Deep Eddys Vodka Tasting Room during the day on Saturday and 6th Street at night. One of my sisters asked me to go up to a guy, that was standing close to us, and just say Hi. I looked at her and said that I was scared.
I know you are probably saying, "Why is she scared to go say hi to someone?". What everyone was trying to do was to get me out of my norm, start introducing myself to guys instead of allowing guys to come to me to speak. I have it stuck in my mind that I am waiting for a guy to come and talk to me first but in reality, I have to come out of my shell and approach them. This has also something to do with my self confidence. As I got older, I felt that I was not pretty enough or skinny enough. Since that weekend, I had to reevaluate myself and get to the root of why I felt like this. I did figure out that I was just nervous of being rejected. I have learned to love myself but I still had that little devil on my shoulder giving me negative thoughts about myself.
Since that weekend, I made it my mission to get out of my norm and enjoy life. I am actually right now conversing with a couple of guys right now (not dating, just conversing). I have to get a feel of them and see where things go. What are some things that you had to change that made you realize that you are not enjoying life? I think I may need some pointers. What is the best advice you can give someone that is trying to break out of their shell? Help me out y'all! lol. Thank you everyone for reading and I will write soon again.
Pieces of Me,